HHHHMMMmmmmmm......

The frequency of smiles such as this is far and few inbetween. They happen so infrequently lately that it is celebrated when such smiles are seen or laughter is heard. How did we get this far into a slump and how do we get out of it? I have started keeping a prayer journal and using it more often, and also have specifically asked Scott to do things with Alex and Matthew so they will feel relaxed and valued again. The hardest part is he does not follow through or understand the whys behind my request (even after explaining them). The boys miss being able to be themselves around him and it is obvious that they regret it when they put there guard down.

I need his help to keep a "regular" routine at home so that the boys know what to expect day in and day out whether I am working or not, and Scott and I have discussed this. But more often than not it is my fault that they didn't eat anything, get Bible study in, or just have fun with each other. I do not know how much longer I can keep Scott, Alex, Matthew, and myself motivated to get awake, moving and take care of each other. I pray for endurance and discernment as to what should I let go of and what do I need to hang on tightly to.

What do I do when my energy is tapped out and there is still more left to do?